Uncommon Legend

I have never been here before. Never in my life have I had to fight myself to get out of bed. Better yet, I have never missed weeks of workouts because of wanting to sleep because I am stressed. It is a feeling that I do not wish on my worst enemy, why? Because it is debilitating. Instead of being positive and looking for good, I found myself just waiting for something terrible to happen. I found myself in a dark place, and it felt like there was no hope. My soul was screaming at me, and I was not listening. I needed rest, but I felt like I could not do it. 

Last week my fiancé and I went out of town for a few days. I needed a break and was extremely stressed with all that was happening in life. However, there was one problem. I am not good at taking breaks. I am an all-or-nothing kind of guy. I always want to go 100%, but we are not built for that. In fact, we need rest often. Trying to rest is a lot harder than trying to push my limits. So, with all this doing, it honestly broke to the point of needing a break. 

The great thing about breaks, though, is that they allow one to recalibrate and lets us get back to the grind. I don’t know if I would have been able to continue you much of anything if I did not take a second to “stop and smell the roses.” Indeed, I would have been too tired to enjoy the stillness that comes from rest. I am not back to my 100% self, but I can feel myself getting back into a routine. I can only hope that  I recognize my stress signs a lot sooner and rest appropriately from this point forward.